heyy ((: lame nye tak blog !
well ; this days have been great for me
spend my WHOLE time with dearest HaFiZ
ouh gawwd ; ii've fallen into a deep hole
a really deep hole full of love !
ii don't know whats happening here
its true ; HaFiZ have been treating me not the way ii want
but ii don't give a damn to that ! ii love hym !
nn its hard for me to let hym go !
ii've wrote a long piece of letter for him ; but should ii give it ?
well ; the letter says : -
"dear bby ,
our 18 mthsarry is growing nearer ; but do uu really care about it ? ii don't think so bby ! well ; it's fine for me dear 'cause iim used to it ! haish ! 261008 will be our 1 yr 6 mths ; ii've never been so long with a guy . haish bby ; why don't uu care about me at all ? ! nvm bby ; go to urr friends okayy ! ii don't mind ! uu want to contact with girls ; go ahead ! ii hate uu ! haish ! but ii love uu ! haish ! what should ii do ? till when should ii be treated like this bby ? when ? bby ! please stop hurting me can ? yeas ! ii do jealous when uu contact with girls ! why can't ii be jealous ? iim urr girl for god sake ! okayy ? ! ii don't contact with other guys outside yhen why should uu ? it's unfair okayy ? ! why can't uu understand me ? ii don't ask anything in return from uu ! ii only want the old HaFiZ that ii knew ! HaFiZ that care about me ! HaFiZ that loves me ! HaFiZ that understands me ! HaFiZ that makes me happy nn laugh every second ! HaFiZ that don't dare to let evena tear drop from my eyes ! haish ! idk bby ! can uu just make me happy ? can uu just change back ? please bby ; understand nn listen ti me for at least once can ? "
ii cant let him go ~ its hard okayy ?! FCUK larhh ! ii want the old him back if can larhh ! haish ! ii love hafiz a lot larhh oii ! ! !